wasn’t I a friend? i guess i never really belonged
Holden has isolated himself in an attempt to be his own savior, but Mr. Antolini’s image of falling presents a more accurate image of what awaits Holden on the other side of the “cliff.” He depends upon his alienation, but it destroys him. — http://www.sparknotes.com/
I’m Holden Caulfield’s girl version. The fall that he’s going through, how he classifies people as phonies, what the red hunting hat means, the way he is afraid of change, and just everything written on the book. Oh the coincidence. why
I cant think straight again. Why is it that I overthink to much? That I decide alot of things that end in regret? That I push people away when I actually need them? That I see all people, fake? Someone told me that I think and do weird. When people look at me on streets I think that they think of me as weird. My social skills became from zero to negative ten because of my akwardness‘ level 999. Someone also asked me if I‘ve got no other plans than to die young. To answer that, well maybe I do or maybe I do not.
I don‘t know anymore for I don‘t know what has become of me.
spent my day crying. so yeah no one cares and no one knows. it’s just too much. i dont know what to do. i cant get angry, i cant show that im mad, i cant do anything, it all remains inside. and all the remains stock up, becomes too much to handle and i know soon enough it‘ll devour me, this sadness. im so fucked up, very fucked up, very very very fucked up. do i deserve this? well i guess i do
These feels of happiness they fade, come back and disappear.
I love them but I can‘t take anything anymore. It‘s too much. I‘m gonna break anytime soon and they don‘t know nothing.
At dahil hindi naman ako nakapunta sa potapeteng UP Fair na yan (andoon kasi UDD T.T) Niyaya ako ng aking kambigan na tumambay sa baler ng aming isang kambigan at nakinood ng korean nobela. Pero pinalayas din kami ng aming kambigan kasi pupunta raw gerfren niya isusurprise niya. Ayaw pa naming umuwi kaya’t naisipan naming tatlo na ikutin ang Betterliving. Nagkwek kwek kami sa may simbahan in courtesy of Januar. Tumigil sa may gilid ng Ministop kasi bumili ng yosi si Do at dahil kahapon pa kong naglilihi ng mangga nagpalibre ako kay Januar ng tatlo sa malapit na fruit stand. Para kaming mga timang kasi tawa kami tawa sa mga kagaguhan namin, ang weirdo siguro tignan non kasi ako lang babae. And on the way, biglang nagtext si Kuya Med kung asaan daw kami kasi sasalubungin niya kami. Edi apat na kaming nagtatawanan sa daan. Sumasakit na likod namin at medyo malayo pa kami pero tuloy parin kami. Ewan ko kung bakit, pero ang malas namin kasi wala kaming mabilihan ng Ayswater nauuhaww na koooo non eh. So yon, naglalakad kami tas bigla nalang kaming nagbatukan kasi ewan ko. Haha. Tas may sinabi si Med tungkol sa buff na ang layo. Tas tinulak ni Med si Januar sa may halaman tas nastuck. Kawawa siya non kasi nasplinter siya :)) Pero wala paring tubig. Andaming taong may hawak na roses and everything tas inaasar nila ko kasi daig pa raw ako nung batang nakasalubong namin, nakakatawa lang :)) And atlast nakaikot na rin kami pabalik sa bahay ng aming kambigan, pero habang papalapit may nakita kaming tumatalon na nakapula sa may garahe, akala namin kung sino amwala siya pala. Edi nagpahinga na kami at kumain ng mangga. Natulog muna ako at umuwi pagkagising ko.
It would be nice to talk to someone who wants to talk to you because he/she thinks you actually talk sense.
Yeah, that’ll be nice.
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